heartbroken

As many of you already know from Facebook, I had to put my beloved dog Molly to rest today. She was 14 years old, and with me since she was just a 8 week old pup.

I considered her like one of m children, she followed me every where, licked away my tears, and stood by my side for more than half my life.

Letting her go was by far the hardest, and most difficult decisions I have ever personally had to make. How do you let someone you love so much pass on? I felt guilt and sadness when the decision needed to be made, and even until the last moments, I felt as though maybe she could pull through, an that I wouldn't have to let her leave.

She became ill about 2 weeks ago, stopped eating, losing muscle mass, and weight. She wouldn't get up often, and when she did she was very weak, and quickly tired. I often had to help her up to get back into bed, or to use the bathroom. I knew the time was nearing, but still held out hope, and in selfishness didn't want to say goodbye.

Monday morning we took her to a wonderful vet, where she was laid on a comfy couch, I got to hold her until her heart stopped. She was in peace, and somehow I was too. I sobbed for a long time, and still am. My eyes are burning in pain, and my heart is full of anguish. The emotions are indescribable, but I thank my Heavenly Father for his love, the love of this wonderful pet, and companion I was able to enjoy for so many years. I cherish her, and every moment I had with her.

I feel lucky that she was mine, and that I was given her unconditional love.